| Om Namaha Shivaya
November 7, 1999, Philadelphia PA USA
Bhole Baba Ki-Jai!
It has been almost a full year since I last created any real
updates to my website and that will soon change. Baba has led me
on quite a wild journey since the summer of '98, some of which I'd like
to share.
First a little background: '94-'95 was devastating to
me. I was totally lost and created a series of experiences that dumped
me at absolute bottom. My only blessings were that my parents wouldn't
let me go homeless and my cat, manifestation of God that he is, wouldn't
allow me to give up hope. [Quick
side note: over one three week period in July '94, I unexpectedly lost my job, my girlfriend
and my apartment. As I lay devasted on my couch, Phee (my cat) jumped
on my lap and wrapped his front legs around my belly and purred until I
stopped sobbing. This hug probably saved my life. Never underestimate
the power of a good hug!]
In late '95 I had a daydream vision that there was one copy
left of a book I had seen at a local spiritual bookstore, and I had to
get it. It was Bob Frissel's first book, and I had the manager of
the store hunt through the shelves for it though he knew it was sold out.
Sure enough there was a copy hidden in the wrong location.... It
was in that book (Nothing in This Book is True) that I first saw
Baba. As I looked into his eyes and asked if what I was reading were
true, His expression changed and He smiled for me! That incident
changed my attitude and direction forever.
I stopped worrying about my life and focused on developing personal
mastery. I've had many many teachers; most would say too many.
I do have a unique gift though that requires me to learn what I can from
just about anyone. I have studied dozens of variations of holistic
healing and creative visualization, and have spent time with saints and
masters from various yoga paths and some intense meditation techniques.
I have become well acquainted with the scientific (left-brain) aspect of
spirituality, learning what I could of sacred geometry and hyper-dimensional
physics. Not that I got caught-up in them, and for me it is important
to satisy the intellectual curiousity that arises out of spiritual experiences.
In mid '98 my four years of learning and teaching culminated in a prosperity
class I named "Conscious Abundance" which integrated the technologies of
positive affirmations, creative visualization, intuition and quantum physics.
Essentially what I was doing was taking students to casinos and teaching
them how to "tune in" and piggyback the universe to win at games. It
works, and now I see that Baba saw that projection
of His disciple as too narrow a benefit of his love. I had to expand
the game of life I was playing.
After teaching the class a half-dozen times I had people telling
me to get into the stock market. Out of nowhere, over the course
of two weeks, six people who were not acquainted with each other told me
that. I always take that as a sign, so I went with it. I studied
technical analysis on my own and after a couple of months started looking
for a way in. After denying two offers that didn't suit me,
an opportunity came up to daytrade for a start-up firm.
It took me several months to integrate my metaphysical knowledge
into trading, and that continues. The recent beauty of this path
follows:
I spent some time this summer asking Baba to provide a spiritual
teacher in-body. While Baba continues to guide of course, my mind
sometimes balks at integrating His messages. [three
summers ago I demanded of Him that He stop communicating only through the
internal; anything "important" now comes through the external in the form
of leela, synchronicity or physical visions.]
In early August I came accross a Kriya initiation through the direct
family lineage of Lahiri Mahasaya. During the Kriya training, another
student asked Shibendu Lahiri, "How do we balance our mundane life with
our spiritual practice?" Shibendu gazed into my eyes and replied,
"First, do not take a job that will give you a lot of money one month and
none the next. You need stability. Take a job that will give
steady income." Now while daytrading can be lucrative, it certainly
isn't steady money. I melted under Shibenduji's gaze. Shortly after
I was told that I had to get more licenses as I would be taking
over the office I am at and would be put on salary!
Sitting here at my computer I am amazed at
the changes I've gone through and the outer reflection of it. I am even more amazed at the
changes I've enjoyed in the past four years since I first met Babaji through
His picture. I am now in a position to affect positive change in
the great financial cauldron. Can't wait to see what that
looks like :-)
The point: it was important for me to take a break from
working on my website (it is much larger than this Babaji area and gets
~5,000 hits/month) so that I could focus on the path Baba had opened for
me. I've made it. In another month I'll have several hours
each week to devote to spreading the Light through the web and I'm very
excited and have much support. By December I'll have the extra cash
I need to secure a domain name and 50meg server space. By the new
year the website will be moved (old urls will still work for 6 months or
so) and I will create the site as Baba guides me, which of course includes
your input.
In service,
Brian Joseph Snyder, "Balvir"
Om Namaha Shivaya
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