This story is based on the history of previous
ABUSIVE relationships of an ex-girlfriend of mine (one of a beautiful twin pair
of ladies). What she told me so outraged me that I wrote this. The editors of
several magazines had expressed appreciation of this, but unfortunately it was
too long for them. At 6000 words it was more than 1000 words too long for their
magazines, though two expressed regret that their guidelines prevented them
from buying the story. Fortunately, the editor of MS Musings online magazine at http://www.msmusings.com
loved it and used it for her April 2003 issue and it is pending in a 2010 issue
of the woman empowering/oriented Moondance
at http://moondance.org .
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Victim
No More!
by
F. Alexander Brejcha
Debbie stopped herself from ringing the
doorbell to Cindy’s house again since obviously her sister was not home. She
started to turn away, forcing down a shiver from the cold night air, but she
had been in such a hurry when she had fled from Billy that she had not even
closed the apartment door behind her, much less worried about bringing a coat.
Coming had been a bad idea, she decided. She knew what her sister would say,
and it wouldn’t help. But as she turned to go, a ray of light flashed out
briefly from a peep-hole and then she heard a chain-lock being loosened in a
hurry and the door was yanked open.
“My God, Debbie! What happened to you?”
Cindy was staring out at her, shock and anger battling it out on her face as
she quickly refastened a small clip-on ruby earring. “I’m sorry it took so long
to answer but I was on the phone. Jesus! Look at you! Did he --”
“No, I walked into a door again.” Debbie
tried weakly to make a joke out of it, but smiling hurt too much. A familiar
coppery taste filled her mouth as fresh blood crept out from the scabs on her
lip. “A real big door, this time.” Suddenly the tough facade she had put on
crumbled and she couldn’t stop the flooding tears that she had kept back. She
reached out for Cindy and clung to her, sobbing. All the betrayal, fear and
pain poured out of her as she let herself be drawn into the house and to the
living-room couch, still in her sister’s protecting arms.
It was funny, but even though at thirty her
sister was only a year older, she always felt so young around Cindy. Her sister
had a small business of her own that was doing well, a house, a new car; all
the signs of success. Meanwhile, she herself still rented an apartment, drove
an old wreck and worked as clerk in a law office while going to school
part-time.
Like always, sharing the pain helped. As
the tears ran dry she looked up, knowing her makeup had to be a washed out
disaster, and she let go of Cindy. She felt a little embarrassed about losing
control like that and looked for a tissue. But Cindy was already holding out a
bunch.
“Here, blow,” her sister commanded. “Then
tell me what the hell that bastard did to you.”
“It was my fault,” she protested. “I was
late home from work and I had a bunch of studying to do. And I forgot that I
had promised Billy I’d go out with him --”
“And that gives him the right to beat the
living shit out of you?” Cindy interrupted and glared. “Take a look at
yourself.” She grabbed Debbie by the arm and pulled her up and over to the long
mirror that hung on the wall in the foyer. Then she turned on the overhead
light -- a bright, unforgiving light.
Debbie
stared at her reflection and cringed.
Her hair, normally a fluffy cloud of
dark blond curls, was matted and flat from the light drizzle that had started
as she got halfway to Cindy’s, and her make-up was streaked and clumped around
her eyes from crying. She looked like a raccoon!
Her eyes unfocused and she stared
numbly into the mirror for a moment, until she noticed Cindy’s scowling
reflection behind her and forced herself to confront her own bruised and puffy
face. A trickle of blood snaked down from the corner of her mouth and the right
cheek, which was already red, blue and yellow with bruising, was swollen like a
misplaced case of mumps. And there was a cut over her eye, too. It had scabbed,
but dried blood stained the side of her face.
Fleeing her face, her eyes dropped to
her light-pink blouse which was ripped at the shoulder. One bra-strap had
snapped when he had tried to rip her top off. He would have raped her, she
realized, if she had not run away. And the short pleated navy skirt she had
made was torn, too. Probably from when Billy had knocked her down onto the
coffee table. It must have been the ears of the small marble horse she had
landed on. She pulled up the skirt and saw a pair of angry bruises on her
thigh.
Suddenly a strong flash of memory
overwhelmed her: the feel of the cool smoothness of the statuette when she had
pulled it out from under her. She had actually been worried she might have
broken it. But she couldn’t remember anything else after that. She had hit her
head, she knew -- when she had rolled off the table onto the floor. Maybe that
was why she couldn’t remember?
All at once she was aware of the
contrast she saw in the mirror. Cindy and she looked a lot alike -- though her
sister had always been prettier -- and they had often been taken for twins with
streaks of individuality. But at the moment there was no resemblance between
them at all. Cindy stood there looking beautiful while she herself looked like
a derelict: dirty, ragged, and bruised.
Her eyes started burning again, and she
turned away from the mirror. “Can I borrow your shower, and a nightgown?”
Cindy jumped forward. “Sure, sis! Come
on. You know where the bathroom is. Just give me your clothes and I’ll toss
them in the washer. I’ve got a needle and thread and I’ll fix the blouse when
it’s dry.”
“Please, let me, in the morning,”
Debbie interrupted, wincing as a sharp pain stabbed at her side while she was
easing out of her blouse. “You might hurt yourself.” Cindy’s lack of skill with
a needle was legendary. Then she gasped as pain shot through her again when she
reached back to unhook her bra.
From then on she was in a dream.
She was only mildly aware, or interested,
in taking off the rest of her clothes and getting under the hot shower. She
roused briefly as she scrubbed angrily to get rid of all thoughts of Billy
touching her, hurting her. But then she drifted back into a daze as she dried
herself off, staining the big beach-towel with blood from freshly opened cuts.
She was only vaguely aware of Cindy putting on disinfectants and dressings. And
then of the delicious cool feel of a silk night-gown caressing her as she was
led to bed and tucked in snugly under a down comforter and left in silent,
solitary darkness.
Billy really hadn’t meant it, she
decided. In the morning, she’d go home and apologize for running away.
* * *
“I’m sorry honey! I didn’t mean to hurt
you.” Billy was crying as he leaned down to help her to her feet. The side of
her face stung where he had slapped her, and her side was sore from glancing
the bedpost when she had fallen back from the blow.
He kissed her gently. “It’s just that my
boss really got on my case today,” he explained. “Someone’s been stealing some
of the stock and he’s blaming me. Can’t prove anything though and it’s pissing
him off.” He stroked her hair. “I love you honey, I don’t want to hurt you...”
The dream image from another day
lingered as she roused briefly to go to the bathroom, never fully waking up.
She realized dimly that Cindy must have left the living-room light on when
going to bed so that Debbie could find her way down the hall to the bathroom in
the middle of the night.
She had no sooner returned to bed than
she was falling asleep again, yet another image overwhelming her as she hovered
between sleep and waking...
“You dumb bitch! I told you never to tell
anyone!” His face was twisted with rage, eyes as hard as the clenched jaw that
stretched the lips back over his teeth in a silent snarl. “I told you to tell
anyone who called that you didn’t know where I was. Can’t you remember
anything?” His hands were twisted in the material of her blouse and she could
hear the seam tearing even as the material dug painfully into her skin...
Mercifully, the image faded into
darkness as sleep reclaimed her.
* * *
The sound of deep male voices woke her.
She couldn’t understand what they were
saying -- the thick walls muffled the words -- but there was more than one person
speaking. And she heard Cindy’s voice, raised in angry protest: “...bastard...
...all night... ...asleep...” filtered through.
She threw back the comforter and got
up, feeling groggy. She glanced at the combination telephone/radio/alarm
clock on the end-table and saw that it was almost noon. It had been a little
after eight when she had run from Billy, and it had taken about forty-five
minutes to get to Cindy’s. Then it had probably taken a couple of hours before
she had been in bed, so she had probably slept over thirteen hours. No wonder
she felt groggy!
She felt naked in the revealing night
gown and glanced around to find her skirt, bra and panties neatly folded on the
night table, and her shoes lying next to the bed along with a fresh pair of pantyhose.
Her blouse was hanging on the bed post.
She picked it up and smiled when she saw
the lumpy seam where Cindy had done her best to mend it. She slipped into her
clothes quickly -- hating the fact that there wasn’t time for a shower -- and
glancing in the mirror, she ran her fingers through her hair for a minute to
try to put the tangled mess into some kind of order. But it was a wasted
effort. Not that anyone would care. She grimaced as she saw her face because
she looked like she’d been hit by a truck. Overnight, her bruises had blossomed
into a full-blown spectacle.
Suddenly she was overwhelmed with doubt
as she touched her face gingerly. Billy had done this to her. How could he, if
he loved her? Her eyes started burning and her stomach churned as she stood
staring at the blurred image in the mirror.
But then the voices in the other room
intruded again.
She decided that she had better find
out what the noise was all about. Bracing herself, she opened the bedroom door
and headed down the hall towards the voices, tongue brushing around in her
mouth gingerly as she wished that she could at least brush her teeth first.
The living-room was suddenly crowded.
Two uniformed policemen and a
plain-clothed detective stood arguing with Cindy. Her sister was still refusing
to wake her and she smiled gratefully. She wondered how long Cindy had been
holding them at bay.
As she came up behind Cindy, the
expressions of uneasy surprise on the policemen’s faces warned her sister that
she was there and Cindy spun to face her, looking concerned.
“How are you... oooh,” Cindy reached
out tentatively to touch Debbie’s face. “You look like shit! How are you
feeling?”
Debbie shrugged. “Groggy, I slept too
long. And I feel like I look.” She noticed Cindy had on the same beige dress as
the night before and realized her sister must have been keeping watch over her.
Or, it had taken all night to fix the blouse after washing her clothes. Knowing
Cindy, it was probably the latter. She surveyed their visitors. “But what’s
with all this?”
“Billy’s dead,” Cindy burst out,
ignoring the detective’s frown.
Debbie stared. “Dead? How?”
The tall detective came towards her and
held out his hand. “Detective Morrison, miss. Homicide.”
“Murdered?” Debbie cut in with
disbelief.
“That’s right,” Morrison answered. “In
your apartment. We got your sister’s name from the neighbors, and found that
you were here. And before we go any further, I am afraid I have to read you
your rights.”
Debbie dropped onto the couch limply as
she heard the familiar words recited in a dull monotone. Familiar words she had
never imagined she would hear this way.
One of the uniformed officers
approached with a set of hand-cuffs but Morrison waved him away with a frown.
“I don’t think they’ll be necessary.”
“I can’t believe you’re arresting her,”
Cindy broke in. “I keep telling you, she came straight here and hasn’t moved
from the spare bedroom since I put her to bed. My God, look at her! Do you
think she’s in any shape to go running around bashing people over the head?”
Morrison sighed. “We’re not charging
her. We’re just bringing her in for questioning.”
Debbie was just numb.
“Debbie!” She realized Cindy was
shaking her. “Come on. I’ll get a hold of a lawyer.” A weak smile touched
Cindy’s mouth. “Too bad this didn’t happen a few years from now. Then you could
have been your own attorney.”
Cindy’s attempt to put her at ease woke
Debbie up and she reached for her sister’s hand and squeezed it. “Thank’s Cyn,
but it’ll be a while before I’ll be ready to go for the bar. Besides, haven’t
you heard the old saying that a lawyer who represents himself, or herself, has
a fool for a client and an idiot for a lawyer?” She forced a painful smile.
“I’ll be fine. Call Tanya Weber.” She reached for a pad and a pen by the phone
on the end table and jotted down a number. “You can get her there. Just tell
her that she owes me for the Samuelson deposition and I’m calling in a favor.” They
can’t hold me, she realized dimly.
* * *
Several hours later, Debbie sat in a small
office Morrison had borrowed, looking around the small room curiously. She
couldn’t believe it, but here she was, a murder suspect, and she was bored!
She had been parked there while they
waited for her lawyer. Morrison was being quite considerate, which Debbie
appreciated, but she still couldn’t wait for Tanya to come and get her away
from there.
Morrison sat across from her behind a
desk, sorting through some objects he had poured out of a large manila
envelope. Debbie froze as one of them caught her eye: a single ruby earring.
“Do you recognize it?” Morrison saw the
direction of her stare. “We found it on the floor in your apartment.”
Debbie remembered Cindy clipping back
on just such an earring as she had answered the door the previous evening. Her
head started swimming and she heard herself lie: “Yes, it’s one of mine.”
“Where is the other one?” Morrison’s
eyes narrowed.
“I don’t know. I haven’t worn them in
weeks. In my jewelry box, I guess.” She felt her stomach fluttering.
Morrison shook his head. “No, I
remember seeing it at your sister’s this morning, lying on one of the end
tables.”
“Oh, I must have taken it off the last
time I was there,” she answered weakly.
“Perhaps last night.” Morrison put in,
face carefully neutral. For several long seconds they locked eyes, until an
angry voice interrupted from the doorway.
“Debbie, don’t answer any questions
until we have talked!” The imposing figure of a frowning Tanya Weber loomed in
the doorway -- all six feet and two hundred and twenty imposing pounds of her.
Debbie suddenly felt better. She was
grateful that Tanya had been able to rearrange her busy schedule. She was one
of the best criminal attorneys at Foster, Michaels and Glassman, and one whose
name would soon be added to the firm’s.
Morrison obviously recognized the
African-American lawyer and he swallowed as he looked over at Debbie. “You have
very handy acquaintances, Mrs. Miller.” Debbie cringed at the married name
she had never changed after her divorce two years earlier.
As Tanya settled into the only other
chair, Morrison quickly went on to explain to the lawyer exactly what had
happened. Especially why Debbie had been taken into custody.
Tanya scribbled quick shorthand notes
on a pad and nodded after a while and cut him off. “Yes, yes, Cindy told me the
rest. Now what were you talking about when I came in?”
Morrison outlined his brief
conversation with Debbie. Then, as he wrapped it up, Tanya put away her steno
pad and leaned back. “Are you formally charging her?”
Morrison shook his head. “No, but--”
“Then cut her loose,” Tanya stopped
him. “You’ve Mirandized her and she still volunteered information, so I can’t
do anything about what she has already said, but the next time she talks to
you, I’ll be with her. Now, either charge her or release her.” Tanya got to her
feet with surprising grace and stared down at Morrison.
The detective shrugged. “I don’t have
quite enough to charge her, yet, but we need to ask her some questions. And in
a few hours when...”
“I don’t care about later,” Tanya cut
him off. “I’m talking about now.”
Debbie reached up and touched Tanya’s
arm. “Please, Tanya. I want to help.”
Tanya studied her face and then sighed
as she settled back down in her chair. She speared Morrison with her eyes. “Go
ahead, but,” she turned sharply to Debbie, “don’t respond unless I give you a
nod.”
Debbie bobbed her head.
“As I said,” Morrison began, looking at
Tanya, “I’m not charging her until the lab team finishes sweeping the
apartment, because there were signs of a forced entry. But there is some
question whether that was planted or not. I’m reserving judgement for now. But,
since nothing seems to be missing in terms of major stuff like stereo, TV or
VCR, I have to ask you if you have any small valuables, like jewelry?”
Debbie saw Tanya nod and answered. “My
mother’s jewelry. When she died last year of cancer, Cindy and I each got half
of her jewelry. There were some pretty valuable pieces there.”
Morrison nodded reluctantly. “Well,
that makes a stronger case for a burglar killing him. We found no jewelry box;
unless you keep it hidden?” Debbie shook her head. “That helps a little. Makes
it more important for any burglar to eliminate witnesses. And it is true that
you don’t live in the best neighborhood or building. Did you know that there
have been three burglaries in that building in the past year alone?” Debbie
nodded mutely as Morrison went on:
“...and Robbery seems to think it’s
someone who lives there. In each case the apartment doors were forced, but the
front door to the building wasn’t touched.” He chewed on his pen a second.
“We’ll put out a description to pawn shops in town on the jewelry if you can
give us a rundown on the pieces.” He looked unhappy. “But I’m afraid I still
have a problem with that because of the way we found the body.”
“How?” Debbie asked. Tanya glared at
her, even as the lawyer pulled out her pad again.
“The neighbors reported hearing your
argument with the decedent,” Morrison answered, “and not the first, either.
That was between seven and eight.”
Debbie suddenly had a flash of
memory...
Billy was raging, screaming at
her... then she was falling... pain... then a swirling fog until she found
herself running down the hall... a neighbor’s door opening and curious eyes staring
out from darkness behind a security chain...
Then the images were gone as suddenly
as they had come. She realized Morrison was still talking.
“...then nothing until at two-oh-six
a.m., when we got an anonymous call about a prowler in the building. The caller
contacted the police district directly, so there was no way of telling where
the call originated from. If he or she -- the voice was disguised, it could
have been a man or a woman -- had called 911, we would have known where the
call came from, but they didn’t.” He stopped, and seemed to be studying her.
“You’re studying to be a lawyer, aren’t
you?” he asked after a moment. “Which I would think would mean that you’ve been
around police stations and are familiar with their procedures.”
“Don’t say anything,” Tanya cut him off
as she turned to Debbie.
“Well, I’m going to assume you are,”
Morrison sighed as he went on. “Which strengthens the case against you, I’m
afraid. You see, you have motive, means and opportunity. And as you well know,
they’re the cornerstones in any murder investigation.” He checked some notes on
the desk and then went on. “The time of death was somewhere between 7 and
midnight. We can’t pin it any closer than that because the apartment was warm.
So, your sister is no alibi because you could have killed Billy before going
over there. Then you could have made the prowler-call while your sister thought
you were asleep.”
Suddenly his tone changed and he looked a
touch regretful. “I’m not saying that Ms. Weber here won’t be able to make a
good case for you.” He glanced at Tanya. “Did I mention we had her thoroughly
checked out before we brought her here?” Tanya nodded and Morrison continued.
“The records from the emergency room and additional pictures we took will show
you certainly were the victim of serious abuse. And there’s your ex-husband,
too. I thought your name sounded familiar, and I checked through our files and
I saw why: your ex-husband was arrested twice for beating you up in the past.
So there is a past history of abuse that will work in your favor.”
Debbie realized dimly that Morrison was
actually trying to help, and in a corner of her mind appreciated it. But she
also saw that the detective really thought she had killed Billy. He was
assuming it.
But she couldn’t have done it! She
loved Billy -- had loved him, she
corrected herself. And he had loved her. He had only hit her when she had done
something stupid or he had had a bad day at work. She had not made it easy for
him, she knew. She was always screwing something up. He had never meant it when
he hurt her. Most of the time he had been wonderful.
Suddenly she cringed. Wonderful?
He had beaten or screamed at her
several times a week -- just like her ex-husband!
All at once the nagging doubts
blossomed as spectacularly as her bruises had and she realized she was free.
For the first time she was able to step back and try to analyze her
relationship with Billy, and she wondered why had never told him to get out. It
was her apartment. He had helped with the rent and such, but the furniture was
hers and the lease was in her name. So why hadn’t she told him to leave?
It was difficult to face, but she
gradually allowed herself to accept the reason. It was for the same reason she
had not tried to flee her husband until he had almost killed her that one
night: because the idea had always terrified her. She had always been afraid to
try to tell him -- and her ex-husband before that -- because she had been
afraid he might kill her. And below that, she finally admitted to herself, had
always been her fear about what she would do if he would leave without arguing.
Because that would have meant that she would have been left alone again.
Alone.
That had always scared her more than
the worst of Billy’s rages. She had been a basket-case after her divorce. Until
she had met Billy. And she had clung to Billy because without him, who else
would love her? That had been her real fear, she realized. She was a screwed
up, insecure mess, and she wasn’t terribly pretty or sexy. And being “smart
with a good personality” was a deadly combination.
But now Billy was gone and she would be
alone again.
So what? she asked herself. She was a murder suspect! What’s a
little loneliness compared to that?
Her head spun as she looked back and
forth from Tanya to Morrison. Then she took a breath and faced Morrison. “Could
you give us a few minutes alone please?”
Morrison got up and nodded respectfully
to both of them. “Sure. You can use this office till you’re ready. I’ll be out
in the squad room.”
As the door closed behind him, Tanya
turned to Debbie with a look of concern. Are you okay?”
Debbie nodded weakly. “I’ll be okay. It
just suddenly hit me, I guess. He’s really dead!” She didn’t go into what else
she was thinking.
Tanya chewed on her lower lip a moment,
and then laid a gentle hand over Debbie’s. “I’m sorry, but I have to know: did
you do it?” Debbie started to protest but Tanya cut her off. “Look, I don’t
care. It would be wrong for me to have any opinion. My job is to defend you.
Your guilt or innocence is irrelevant. But I have to know so I can be on guard
for any surprise evidence.”
“But I don’t know,” Debbie
almost wailed in frustration. “For all I know Cindy could have done it. I don’t
remember anything from the time Billy knocked me down to when I got to
Cindy’s.” She froze, an image flashing through her mind. She was going to the
bathroom in the middle of the night, and the living-room light was on, but
Cindy was nowhere to be seen. What if Cindy hadn’t been in bed? she
wondered. Could Cindy have? No, that was ridiculous.
Then she realized Tanya was talking.
“...and if you don’t know, that causes some problems. Assuming you’re being
straight with me about not remembering...” she looked at Debbie closely. “No,
you’re telling the truth. In that case we have a problem. You see, the police
are sure that you did it. And we’ll have a tough time using passion and amnesia
for a defense -- no matter how much Morrison sympathizes -- because of the
apparently staged burglary, and the all too clever and convenient phone call.
And then the fact that the statue was wiped clean.”
“What statue?” Debbie interrupted,
confused.
“The marble horse, of course.” Tanya
grimaced at the inadvertent rhyme. “That’s what he was killed with.”
Debbie again remembered landing on it
when Billy had knocked her onto the coffee table. She could almost feel the
smooth coolness of the marble in her hand... of the heavy feel of the stone...
of... Suddenly the sensations were gone and she heard Tanya’s calm voice again.
“...coroner found marks that indicated
he was hit twice over the head with the horse. The first would only have
stunned him. It was the second blow that killed...” Tanya saw that Debbie was
staring at her. “Morrison didn’t tell you how Billy was killed?”
“Not when I was picked up, and I don’t
think he did when we got here. I don’t remember,” Debbie shook her head. “I got
distracted when he pulled out Cindy’s earrings... oh!” She clapped her hand to
her mouth, realizing what she had let slip; and what it might mean.
Tanya jumped on it. “What aren’t you
telling me?”
Debbie was silent for a long while. She
felt Tanya’s eyes digging into the back of her head as she faced the wall. She
felt like crying. Finally she couldn’t hold it back. “I’m afraid maybe Cindy
killed Billy... except she couldn’t do that!” She felt so ashamed about her
suspicions.
Tanya stared at her. “What on earth...
where do you get that idea?”
Debbie went on to tell Tanya about the
police finding one of Cindy’s earrings in her apartment. And about Cindy still
wearing the same dress in the morning, and of finding the living-room still
lit, and maybe empty in the middle of the night. “...maybe she went back to
tell Billy what she thought of him beating up on me,” she continued. “Cindy had
been getting more and more pissed off every time it happened. You should have
seen her last night. She was furious! Maybe they got into an argument about it
and she picked up the horse and hit him to defend herself, I don’t know.” Her
fingers twisted the top button of her blouse restlessly. “She wouldn’t go there
and just kill him. I don’t care how angry she was. She wouldn’t do it!”
“But she’s smart enough to wipe her
prints afterwards if she did do it. And to try to make it look like a prowler
did it.” Tanya looked thoughtful. “And she would know the safe way to phone in
a report. I know she’s been along with you to police stations and such out of
curiosity.” The lawyer straightened in her chair. “When we finish here, we’re
going to have to sit down with your sister and do some straight talking.”
There was a knock on the door and
Morrison entered. He looked at Tanya. “Are you also representing Cindy Breyer?”
“Yes, I suppose so,” Tanya answered,
her face neutral. “Why?”
“Because I am having her picked up for
questioning.” The detective glanced at Debbie. “Your obvious lie about the
earrings was bugging me. At first I thought you were covering yourself, but
then I thought of something else. Back at your sister’s house, she was
defending you, saying you would hardly go around beating people to death. But,
how did she know how your boyfriend died? The cause of death hadn’t been
released yet, pending a full autopsy report. He could have been shot, stabbed
or strangled. But your sister knew that he had been beaten. How?”
Debbie couldn’t help gasping, but
Tanya’s face was an ebony mask as she took it in stride. “I take it Ms. Breyer
has been properly Mirandized and will be brought here so I can talk to her?”
Morrison nodded, but he was staring at
Debbie and she knew that he could see right through her.
* * *
A while later in the bleak interview
room, Cindy looked back and forth from Debbie to Tanya.
Cindy looked scared, Debbie realized.
She was shocked. Their whole lives, she had never seen her sister like that. For
some reason it gave her strength and she grabbed Cindy and hugged her, feeling
thrilled to be the one to provide comfort for a change. Tanya coughed politely
and they separated, sitting down next to each other across from the imposing
figure of the lawyer.
“All right Cindy,” Tanya asked. “I’m
going to ask you the same question that I asked Debbie: Did you kill Billy?”
Cindy stared at her. “What do you mean?
Of course not! I was just...” She turned to Debbie with a hurt look. “Did you
tell her that --”
“No!” Debbie cried out. “I didn’t know
if maybe...” She described her suspicions, and those of the police, which bore
out her own. Her sister sat listening, grimly at first, but then with growing
confusion.
As Debbie finished, Cindy shook her
head. “Honestly, I didn’t kill him. Yes, I went back to your apartment, and
yes, I was pissed off. I don’t know what might have happened. Especially if he
would have tried attacking me. But when I got there, he was already dead. I
tried ringing the doorbell and then just went in when he didn’t answer. The
door wasn’t locked. He was on the floor in the living-room.”
“Oh God! Then I did kill him,” Debbie
burst out.
“That’s what I thought,” Cindy
explained, looking bewildered. “I jimmied the door and wiped the statue clean.
I remember you telling me about the other break-ins in the building.” But she
was talking to Debbie’s back.
Debbie had gotten up and was staring
through the wire-meshed window at the bare concrete yard outside the police
station. As Cindy had talked about finding Billy’s body, her mind had flashed
back again...
She fell backwards onto the low coffee
table... the side of her jaw screamed with pain -- or was that her voice?...
then a sharp stabbing as she landed on something hard and rolled onto the
floor, hitting her head on the corner of the table... the hard object she had
fallen on went down with her as the table tilted and she felt herself lying on
the bruising hardness of stone... she reached down under herself and felt the
slick coolness as she pulled the object out... her stone horse... the weight
was solid in her hand as anger surged... she brought her arm forward, feeling
the heavy stone leave her hand as she flung it at Billy...
Her fingers clenched the frame of the
lower half of the window, feeling the gritty dirt crusting the old paint as she
threw her head back, eyes blurring. “I threw the stone horse at him,” she heard
herself say. “I must have hit him just right...” She laughed bitterly. “Just
wrong, rather.” She felt her sister come up behind her and embrace her.
But as she stood there, Debbie’s mind
started twisting; rebelling. Her fingers tightened on the window-frame.
“I am so sorry!” Cindy rested her cheek
on Debbie’s back. “I guess I just made it worse. I panicked, and I tried to
make it look like a burglar did it.”
Debbie tensed and then spun and cut her
sister off as Cindy’s words crystallized her thoughts. “A burglar!” Pieces were
starting to fit together as she began looking at her situation as a
lawyer-in-training instead of as a poor helpless victim. One thing in
particular suddenly came to mind.
“I left the door to the apartment open
when I ran out,” she said, glancing at Tanya. “If I killed Billy, then the door
would have been open when Cindy got there. But,” she looked back at her sister,
“you said the door was closed.” Something else came to mind. “Did you take my
jewelry with you to make it look even more like a robbery?”
“No,” Cindy answered sheepishly. “I
guess I was too upset to think that far ahead.”
Debbie started to feel giddy. “Well, my
jewelry was gone, so there was a burglar!”
“Who was also a killer?” Cindy looked
at Tanya, wide-eyed.
The lawyer’s face was cracked in a
cautious smile. “I’ve got another point for you, counselor.” She looked at
Debbie. “The coroner said Billy had been hit twice. It was the second blow that
killed him. How much you want to bet that the first was from when you threw the
horse at him, and the second was from the burglar.”
“He might have heard the fight and come
to investigate,” Debbie guessed. “And Billy might still have been out of it
from when I hit him. The burglar might have thought Billy was dead and decided
to go through the place, and found my jewelry. And maybe Billy woke up to find
him there and tried to stop him?” Then she remembered again the curious eyes
staring out from behind a cracked doorway in the hallway to her apartment, as
she was running away. The building burglar? “I might even know who! But
it wasn’t me, and it wasn’t you,” she turned to Cindy in relief, and then she
looked back at Tanya who was staring at her.
“You might know who?” the lawyer asked.
Debbie explained her memory of the
curious eyes and Tanya nodded thoughtfully. Then she grabbed the lawyer’s arm,
“let’s get Morrison.”
“Not so fast,” Tanya warned. “Let me do
the talking. Now that we have an idea of what might have happened, I’ll have
you both out of here soon enough. The only thing left to explain is the phone
call.”
“When were you at the apartment?”
Debbie asked Cindy, interrupting.
“Around two,” Cindy answered.
“The burglar might have heard or seen
you and decided to try to get you caught, to take the heat off himself,” Debbie
guessed, raising a questioning eyebrow at Tanya.
The lawyer nodded thoughtfully and
knocked on the door. Then, as it opened and she was let out, she turned back to
Debbie. “Could be. I’ll mention it to Morrison.”
As the door closed behind the lawyer,
Debbie looked over at her sister. Her mind was churning. “How do I say thank
you?” she wondered out loud. “You put your whole life on the line.”
“You’re my little sister, dammit! I
love you.” Cindy was crying, Debbie realized as her sister reached out for her
and feeling a little disoriented, Debbie held her. She didn’t feel so much
younger, now, Debbie realized. And she really wasn’t alone. Not ever,
anymore! she thought fiercely. And there would never be another Billy!
Together, they sat down to wait for
Tanya to return.
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